Emotions engulfed me on the bus. was sitting opposite a granny. OUt of nothing she gave me a really warm smile. then she proceed on to wrapped her IC and ez-link card into her makeshift wallet make out of tissue paper. her stained jaed bangles, floral blouse, unflattering pants brings me back to my childhood days. she reminds me of my granny. i went alot with her. she cleaned up my shit, feed me, put me into bed, gave me yakult to drink when i am a good boy, comfort me when i am scare accompany me to the toilet when i am scared. once my mum attempted to cane me and granny came forward to block the stroke for me. it hurts, i know it does. i could feel it from my granny. now it hurts me even more just looking at granny's state now. she';s senile and sinking ino depression. she's not as strong as before. most of the time, she's lying on the bed. whenever i see her, it pains me i couidn't look into her eyes, fearing i might break down any moment. all i could do is to muster a smile saying "ah ma,wa chia liao..." i hold her hands everytime i see her. its still the same withered hands that pat me to sleep when i was a child. if this equation in this world, someone please take 5 years of my life and give it to my granny instead. i missed her. i love you ah ma.

Wednesday, March 31, 2004

jason went to ponder at 10:27 am,
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came across the papers today had read this article that inspired me. Shall share it over here. Its somehow a norm in the society that a man should pursue the 5Cs however this writer suggest the other 7 Cs that singaporean man are lacking.

Challenge: The most important of all. local men must be willing to admit their flaws, and rise to the challenge of chaning. only then will they be as desirable as others.

Character: Don't be a homogenous, regular guy. there is plenty to go around. put ur best foot forward and show your most desirable character traits. prove your worth.

Chivalry: It is almost undetectable among local men. not jus Caucasians but also Filipino men are so generous with it. it is such a delight in their company. Simple acts of holding doors open and carrying items makes a huge difference witht he ladies. i suggest social etiquette classes. And don't juz do it to win favour. Do it because you respect women.

Conversation: If there's no talk, there's no discovering similar interest, no revealing of intriguing personality, no fireworks,. and i don't mean small talk.

Creativity: Concerning dates, of course. Town? yawn... Movies? yawn...

Charisma: Confidence? Conviction? KNowledge? Wisodm? maybe sum people are born wif it, but it also can be developed.

Chances: You are bless with opportunity. Now go and do something bout it.

Hmmm... think the writer had a bad brush with local guys anyway however i guess somehow they are rather true in singapore context. we guys ought to brush up on that. i have attain some, how bout you?

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

jason went to ponder at 6:57 pm,
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had a unexpected conversation wif S-A today. she had gain my respect as a woman. her independence, confidence and vision is amazing. she knows what she wants and is heading straight towards it. she's those kind of lady that will shame guys. I've learn a important lesson from her today. She follows her heart.

jason went to ponder at 6:53 pm,
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i have sorted out my objectives for my internship period. i'm going to be a sponge at 4 seasons. i'll learn as much as i can and when i leave, i'm not going to leave behind a vacancy, i'll leave behind a legacy.

Monday, March 29, 2004

jason went to ponder at 5:30 pm,
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phew...after today, much work would have been dissolved, no more worries about them... haven't been really reflect on what has been going this few days as i've been caught up in hustle and bustle of school life. Accepted Four Seasons internship offer last week and had to reject Sheraton Towers's one. kinda feel bad cos the HR manager put lots of faith in me and i decided to join the other hotel. will sign my contract tomorrow with four seasons and hopefully if time permits, gonna make my way down to Sheraton to thank the manager for her time. Sometimes i keep questioning why i make this decision cos at 4 seasons i'm not going to be concierge for the full 6 months instead i'm going on a departments rotation system; to make things even worse, i only want to be a concierge for my internship. Why? izzit becos of prestige? partly i guess since its more exclusive to get into 4 seasons. However i guess its due to the work culture at 4 seasons. Realise people over there are much more friendly and warm and the staff are much more empowered. they take staff welfare into high regards and they got a really nice back of the house compared to other rugged ones at other hotels. Gonna look forward to my internship stinst in this prestigious hotel. though expectation are high, but i'm sure i live up to it. Finally i have took the 1st step of stepping into the industry and i'm gonna make a "boom boom" in the hotel. watch out~

Friday, March 26, 2004

jason went to ponder at 2:05 am,
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what does the future hold? hmm..i don't know. i only know i'm following my heart not my head.

Sunday, March 21, 2004

jason went to ponder at 6:12 pm,
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walking down orchard road and esplanade with my executive suit yesterday feels very different from the previous times i wore it. i felt empowered and as though i have the world in my hands. everything suddenly feels like going so well for me. Went for interview at 4 seasons, fullerton n marriot and everything seems to fall right in place. I feel like i have everything i wanted. family, love, carreer(though its juz an internship), my scouts, life! i have lived life to the fullest, i have no regrets even if i just drop dead the next moment. (touch wood) 4 seasons called today. i'm through to the next rounds of interview. gonna meet the directors of HR & Rooms division. Gonna charm their pants off tomorrow. gonna kick some ass tomorrow!

Friday, March 19, 2004

jason went to ponder at 2:24 pm,
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Listening to the hospi orchestra's blabbering and gossiping in the com lab, i suddenly feel so proud of myself. its a privilege to be in this course and i have no regrets at all to be in this course. its so late yet the com lab is buzzling with activties. Somehow the com lab belong to the hospitality cohort exclusively. Most of them are rushing through their projects but a "small group" are engaging in small grp gossip ranging from their SIP adventures to "am i fat" conversation. though everyone is totally engrossed in their own world, i believe all of us enjoyed each other company. Everyone's toiling, some are smiling but mostly are stressed. could see lots of pandas staring at the monitorsnow. their tired fingers speeding through the keyboards. could see from their expression that their brain are exhausted. hmm... Saffron united, let's work together. i believe everyone will make it through. =)

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

jason went to ponder at 1:36 pm,
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sorry wilson.. for not being there physically with you. i'm really relieved when u told me he's back home already. praise the lord. ya, hope all of us learn a lesson from this. i have.

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

jason went to ponder at 2:01 pm,
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Mother nature cast a drizzle on TP today. the ominous rain gives me a really bad feeling. its was gloomy and seems to be warning me. i was right. now, sitting at the com lab, with my coursemates, i hold my tears. i'm tired. i need a breather.

jason went to ponder at 1:16 pm,
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it poured today... too bad i wasn't there much to experience those splatters against my facade. Put up a strong front today for Saffron today. Have to cos i'm a outsider and i've to give my best as i dun wan to be accused of pulling the class standard down. though it was tough to keep smiling, it felt great after the whole operation. i feel useful and almost indispensable to them. was literally a walking zombie after that cos slept only 2 hours the night b4.. Projects! anyway i believe i grew stronger mentally but degenerate physically. QQ was different today. he's in deep shit i guess. will try to have men's talk with him tomorrow.

Monday, March 15, 2004

jason went to ponder at 4:03 pm,
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prayer: Dear lord, please give me strength. the strength to say no. the strength to go on even when all odds are against you. the strength to smile even when everything is going wrong. to strength to be able to remember every single details of my life so i wouldn't give empty promises. i'm tired. i'm really tired. too tired to shoulder all the responsiblities i have. too tired to go on and carve a place in everyone heart. too tired to be there for people. I'm slowly losing myself. the once almighty, happy-go-lucky, jason has fallen. i've lost my edge, i'm afraid. please hold me. please.

Sunday, March 14, 2004

jason went to ponder at 10:35 pm,
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yesterday was boom boom great!!! went for my attachment interview at sheraton towers and it was a "top of the world" feeling after i step out of the HR office. They are willing to groom me to be their concierge and be under the guidance of one of the best conceirges in singapore. Am really excited about this prospect but decided to keep myself level-headed. The nice manager is willing to give me allowance time and let me go for other hotel's interviews before i make my final decision. think its gonna take something really big to prise me away from Sheraton. Am looking forward to this thursday interview with Fullerton but i'm really waiting for Four Seasons to call me up for interview. Anyway will take a step at a time. While in the bus back home, i come to realise what have been happening around and get to understand the concept of marketing. Realise i have been undifferentiated marketing currently in my life. I am focusing on too much stuff right now and it makes me loses my direction. I can't show full committement to 1 or 2 single thing and develop it.. I couldn't bear to let go with committement. I know the day will come for me to make the decision but this is not the day. I'm gonna keep trying to make it work out even at the expense of my own enjoyment cos its me who get myself into so much shit so its gonna be one to slowly get out of it or drown in that pool of shit. Hope someone can show me the light...

Saturday, March 13, 2004

jason went to ponder at 2:51 am,
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Chances are - Robert Downey Jr & Vonda Shepard

Chances are you'll find me
somewhere on your road tonight.
Seems I always end up driving by.
Ever since I've known you,
it just seems you're on my way.
All the rules of logic don't apply.

I long to see you in the night.
Be with you 'til morning light.

I remember clearly how you looked
the night we met.
I recall your laughter and your smile.
I remember how you made me feel so at ease.
I remember all your grace, and style.

And now you're all I long to see.
You've come to mean so much to me.

Chances are I'll see you
somewhere in my dreams tonight.
You'll be smiling, like the night we met.
Chances are I'll hold you,
and I'll offer all I have.

You're the only one I can't forget.
Baby you're the best, I've ever met.

And I'll be dreaming of the future.
And hoping you'll be by my side.
And in the morning
I'll be longing for the night,
for the night.

Chances are I'll see you
somewhere in my dreams tonight.
You'll be smiling, like the night we met.
Chances are I'll hold you,
and I'll offer all I have.

You're the only one I can't forget.
Baby you're the best I've ever met.

Thursday, March 11, 2004

jason went to ponder at 4:47 pm,
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it rained today...am in the school com lab now doing my incentive travel project with QQ. Reminiscing about what happened lately.. Its the Student internship placement period for our cohort.. the dark side of Human Nature could be seen over here. Almost everyone are anxious of their place at the company they are applying and worried that someone better might overtook their place as some companies have limited places. From all this rat race, could see the selfish nature of human. Humans are selfish by nature. This reinforced my perception of its a "dog eat dog, survival of the fittest" mentality going on in the society. however i'm still gonna stick to my principle of treating people nice even they treated u badly cos the best way to destroy an enemy is to befriend it.

jason went to ponder at 1:29 pm,
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"what with i have 25 hours instead of 24 hours?" ever thought bout it? i do.
i'll hug leigh and tell her i love her=2 min.
i'll hug my mum and tell her i love her=2 min
i'll hug my dad and tell him i love him=2 min
i'll hug my brothers and tell them to take care of mum and dad and i love them=3min
i'll hug uncle tiong and tell him how much he had inspire me to greater heights=2 min
i'll hug uncle soon and tell him how much he has been the foundation of my life=2 min
i'll hug cousins jerome,jerode,vaness,beatrice,bridgette and ask them to be good=5min
i'll hug big bird and tell him he had groom me to what i am now.=2min
i'll hug oscar and tell her i'm honoured to have a sister like her.=2min
i'll hug bert and tell him i don't know what i will become without him.=2min
i'll hug cookie M and tell him not to smoke too much and i glad he had changed for the better=2min
i'll hug elmo and tell her not to junk too much and i'll always be there for her.=2min
i'll hug grover and tell him i'll always be his protective aura.=2min
i'll hug mrs chan and let her know how much i treasure her and how she become my "mum".=2min
i'll hug saffrron united "jinde,younguang,weisheng,ian,phat,gerald,wilson,tingwei,kaijun,chenchin,
alvin,louis,damian,aaron,QQ,junyi,frog,pinky,katherine,sooling,kelly,sabby,gini,claire,both.rachels,
both.aileens,grace,jenna,cynthia,funky,jolene,alynna,anne,both.janes,joanna,yanting,shuhui&wanrou"
and thank them for being the milestones of my life. =10min
i'll hug HTMIG and le them know what a great job they had done. - 6min
i'll hug caitlyn for always being my buddy. - 2min
i'll hug liping for being my 15 years friend. - 2min
i'll hug amelia for being such a sweetie always - 2 min
i'll hug junwei cos i really miss him now. - 2min
i'll lie in the rain and embrace what i have -3min
the last minute i'll pray and wish all the best to the people i have hugged..


Wednesday, March 10, 2004

jason went to ponder at 12:29 am,
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i don't exactly know the reason for starting this blog but i deduce it partly the rain. its been raining non-stop for more than 2 days and it still haven't stop... the rain played a big part in my life. the rain moved me, disappoint me, touched, warmed me, embraced me. i always regard the rain as one of the wonders of the world apart from the stars. I believe they are nature's way of expression. Whenever it is a bright sunny weather, i feel empowered. i feel the need to be strong. The sun rays inflicted onto me are like each single whip by the sun to make me grow stronger. A rainy weather soften me. I become more emotional and tends to let my thoughts run wild and always memorable incidents in my life flashed past me in this period of time. One such incident will be when was i was in sec 1 during my scouts annual camp at Sarimbum. It was my life turning point. we the scouts are ask to push a pick-up van with another batch of scouts in it. It was raining at that time. the cheers was deafening. i remember the echo at the back of my head, "PUsh! push! push! and the songs we sung to keep us going, "she'll be coming round the mountain when she comes.." this incident makes me treasure the people around me going through the same life lesson with me together. it makes me treasure brotherhood and the bond i have with my scouts. After the camp. it make me grew stronger yet weaker. I became much more independent and i matured. being mature makes me think deeper than usual and from this i get to understand much more complex things than usual. They make me understand polictics and the dark side of human nature. realising this these stuff happen not in only reel life but in real life too, i grew disheartened. Its beyond my control , yet i feel the obligation to change what's going on. this is where the rain comes in. each drop of rains seem like mother nature way of patting my head. each single drop represents each single stroke of her hand. The rain orchestrate a neverending hymn which always have a hynotic effect on me, to make me forget my worries and juz lie in mother nature's arm and be myself. though the rain have a cooling effect according to what the geography textbook says, i feel warm and good about myself instead. one good indulgence in life will be just to walk or run through the pouring rain or the mild drizzling. It rejuvenates you but remember after the walk, head straight to a hot shower or else you're gonna catch a cold. =)

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

jason went to ponder at 1:59 am,
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Creed

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