It's was a rather lucky day for me today..while we plan to take a cab to suntec for norah jones' concert, we chanced upon a london cab so we decided to grap it. while i was returning home, chanced upon a mercs cab and i grap it too. the concert was rather so-so, but i enjoyed the time spent together. Next stop, Diana Krall maybe?
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Ever tried coconut ice cream? well.. we just did...
i always don't believe in the practicality of buying a flower, so........ i "steal" one. Live at the present moment - I'm going to give my best shot. the less i worry about winning and about how people think, the better i'm going to perform.
Forcing things never works - Real power comes when i'm relaxed. i'll only be more powerful when i'm not trying to prove i'm powerful. He can grant me extraordinary powers but leave me helpless when i need them the most.
Keeping my cool - Getting angry never works. It corrupts, deteoriates and confuses my abilities.
I won't hate any of my opponents, I'll lift my performance instead - hating things and people drains my energy and take my mind off from what i am meant to be doing. "Forgiveness is the fragance the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it. - Mark Twain
If i think the world is against me, i'm bloody right - Blaming other people doesn't work. I'm taking maximum responsibility.
Face fear and focus on it - fear is a killer, the way to destroy it is to face it.
Bring it on now! i'm ready for whatever you throw at me! because this time i believe in putting on the best performance, not in winning something. Now it's not about the result, it's the fight i'm going to give.
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Lunch at Fisherman's Wharf.. Nice food there, air con will make it better. company was great though~
~Board of Governors Luncheon~
memories are made of these.. it's probaby the last time we going to don this uniform together as a TEAM... Hopefully we'll rub shoulders again in the future, but this time wearing different uniforms..
and definitely not this..
hope the both chefs don't see this..
we can almost play with anything we can get our hands on.. for this case, its their teeth...
Breakfast by the quay at O'Briens. freaking 9 bucks for a simple sandwich and my all time favourite, coke or pepsi. Just felt like spoiling myself given i had a torrid time this week. at least life is worth living for. armed with my book, i juz watched people walked by, boats sail by, scooters scoot by~ time just whizzed by. i'm graduating soon, damn soon. i'm really gonna miss all those yr 3s and hopefully not you.
Friday, February 25, 2005
When you change your deepest beliefs about the world, your life changes accordingly..kept holding on to the HP.
taking a cab when you got the luxury time of taking a bus.
never taking a second look at what you like best
willing to drop everything, just to get what you want.
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Thank you brothers!
thank you for rubbing my shoulder when i was in such a sorry state at the turf..
thank you for letting me hold you all when i limp my way down the stairs..
thank you for offering to hold my bag, my jacket, me...
thank you for thinking of means to get me back, be it the porn way, the wacky way or the adventure way..
thank you for being there when i need someone to just hold me and tell me everything will be fine.
thank you!
"To jason, for being the one always there for us, now its time for us to be there for you.." these words really touched my heart.. =*)
"Brothers are forever, after today, everything will be back to normal." I'll make it normal. Brothers, i love you all and i will get back on my feets to land those tenacious tackles on you guys.. u all make the future wothwhile to look forward to..
Cheers!
Cheers to our brotherhood~!
everything is so worth it for this shot...
part 2 to our mini adventure...
part 1 to our mini adventure..
S.H.E. the porn version..
Batman & Superman..
the shifting sand. one phone call change it all. it's time to find back myself. i may fail in this journey, but i'm going all out this time. time and tide waits for no man..
Monday, February 21, 2005
hey kid, u know the odds are against you, why bother? finish this week and live your own life. Why stop people from having their fun-filled life? you dumbass! only when u have no hindrance, your goals will seem so much more clearer. Don't sink into other's wrath, create your own! you are capable of that and you know that. just imagine the power and wealth that's waiting at the end of the tunnel. countless! you don't need anyone, you just need yourself. you may grief, but next week, you shall truimph for we will rule the world together...
i'm a lucky chap. in times like this, I'm glad friends surround me not i myself looking for them. i guess its quite a "spectacular" sight to them today as its the first time i treat to them a "show". a show where i lose myself yet again, a show that display my weakness. i'm not sure when it will stop but the road ahead look so gloomy. i did another silly thing again.. vacuumed my angbaos just for that thing. my head is telling me that i'm dumb for walking into a desert even though i know i'm thirsty. my heart just keep singing the same tune. -cos it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you.
Adam Sandler - I wanna Grow Old With You
i wanna make you smile
whenever you're sad
carry you around when your arthritis is bad
all i wanna do, is grow old with you
I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
So, it could be so nice growing old with you,....
I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man that grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you.
bubba once told me while we are playing the guitar at the scouts chalet," hey, don't take things for granted." i brushed him off. now its right smack in my face and i have learnt my lesson. there's never a better or perfect person. there's only you.
Sunday, February 20, 2005
and happily ever after..
a moment of truth..
u could feel her anticipation from the TV..
this pictures speaks it all..
finally he made his way up the plane and sing "that song".
then comes the obstacles they gotta go through... i could feel the longing in his eyes.
didn't want do my work so was rotting infront of the tv cos i'm dried alr. chanced upon "the wedding singer" and really wanted to know how "that song" came about. so it all started from a "educational" kiss..
Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me.
Why must you go about mourning,
oppressed by the enemy?
Bones suffer mortal agony
as your foes taunt you,
saying to you all day along,
"Where's your God?"
vindicate me, cos the phoenix had arisen from the ashes...
=) it's not so easy after all. i'm gotta fight him again. OTHERS BACK OFF!
it all started under the moon, now i shall feast on what's left ..
thank you once again~
Friday, February 18, 2005
thank you for pulling me back from his arms... I'm back and i'm going to fight for what i believe this time..
it clenches each moment images appear.
i have never resorted to using violence in my entire life and never it will be.
Something is growing..
You not quite the fighter I expected on my side at the frontlines .i don't need you. out!
watched 'Courage' and it's send massive waves to my eyes to see how the couple braved thru the mass difficulties they faced.
"Should you need to pause to tie your shoelaces or simply to take a rest, let me know. I'll let your hand go willingly, and I hope you'll do the same. However, I hope that our hands will still find each other's at the end of the day as we continue down this road.. "
There's never a jigsaw puzzle nor Bali nor Maldives, just a puddle.
If it all falls apart, i will know deep in my heart.
The only thing that matter had come true, in this life, i was loved by you.
however..
i love you too much to make you stay,
baby, fly away..
Thursday, February 17, 2005
I Will Carry You - Clay Aiken
Yeah, I know it hurts
Yeah, I know you're scared
Walkin' down the road
That leads to who-knows-where
Don't you hang your head
Don't you give up yet
When courage starts to disappear
I will be right here
When your world breaks down
And the voices tell you, "Turn around"
When your dreams give out
I will carry you, carry you
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to flood your eyes
When you're falling behind
I will carry you
Ev'rybody cries
Ev'rybody bleeds
No one ever said
That life's an easy thing
That's the beauty of it
When you lose your way
Close your eyes and go to sleep
And wake up to another day
You should know now that you're not alone
Take my heart and we will find
You will find your way home
When your dreams give out
I will carry you, carry you
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to flood your eyes
When you're falling behind
I will carry you, carry you
I will carry you, carry you
I will carry you, carry you
I will carry you
?em yrrac
in times like this, i can't help but seek solace to him. he gave me a tempory degenerating armor. i wanted to be cool-blooded. to feel numb, to feel nothing. i had enough of the nonsense and i seek solace in the one within. he needs to be awaken cos i need him now.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
i like this.. One tale I came across…
She met him.
He doesn’t remember a single thing even its on film.
By chance, he finally remembered.
He gave her cactus, she gave her number.
He shared, she shared more.
He gave, she gave more.
The library, the mountain and the river they trot,
Before the relationship starts to rot.
Differences and goals came in,
Arguments and unhappiness sink in.
Hands that are once entwined,
Are now finally unwinded.
He thought the whole world belongs to him again,
Self-delusionised, he’s was wrong, he was inflicted pain.
Karma had never seen so real,
Now it’s showing its appeal.
What lies in the bottomless pit is never the world
Just lays a monster which is cold.
What if? I should, I would have, engulfed the brain,
It’s too late and it’s in the drain.
Time machine he pray for grace,
Di sa ppea rance of that phase.
just had supper with kruffle. she's back from aust for her holidays and will be leaving tmr. i'm glad we finally met up after our last encounter 1-2 yrs ago. she hasn't changed much except for long and straighter hair. she's still that senior that behave like a lil girl, even when she drives.. it's wierd feeling, sitting in that car she drove ; not use to having a friend drive me around.
kruffle: follow your heart. go for the honours if you think it'll do more good. don't leave rooms for regrets.
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
kruffle gifts - keychain from australia and "chocs" candies from taiwan..
i just can't bring myself to do that peace sign... my legs are getting itchy... my body is raring to go... i can't wait for soccer this evening! Finally its all over... been doing lion dance with my scouts for 3 days of CNY, haven't really got the chance of visiting any relatives.. anyway i prefer lion dance too. it's the time where all generations of the scout troop bonded together. its amazing to see the veterens working together with one common goal - which is to earn big bucks for the troop. I grew more discipline durng those days because gotta wake up really early to prepare for the day. i feel great! It's not the big bucks, not the extravagant dinner we have, but the spirit we had built up. The Yeung Ching Spirit~
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Taufik BatisahOne Last
I never could imagine, life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for a while and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
It's better if we just let it go
Every time I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for a while and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
It's better if we just let it go
Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to hear
So let's have
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for a while and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
It's better if we just let it go
We both know
It's better if we just let it go
it's been quite awhile.. i finally see him at the end of the tunnel..
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
suppose to have our "reunion" dinner with the brothers, in the end only 4 "turn up".. as you can see, manage to get the four of us in the picture. me,taupok,frog's legs and aaron's legs. after our supposinly "dinner" we went back to sch and just rot at the school astroturf. just lie there for hours, discussing about stars, our history and girls. (when you got a group of guys, there's bound to be lots of girls to talk about) we enjoyed ourselves even though its just the four us. we can laugh,scream,shout, hurl vulgarities like nobody business.. felt so much better after this rotting session....
Monday, February 07, 2005
This pictures sums up what goes on during HTM olympics on Friday..
100-plus bottle = Sports ( you name it, we play it)
Teh 'Peang' = Our usual get-together drink.
Food Menu = Our usual eat out at coffeeshops
Guitar = not to mention our rendition of different variety of songs.. hokkien, gangster rap, ballad, etc...
Dennis's smile = Our creed. enjoy and cherish..
Kaijun's "face" and his "peace" sign = whatevver...
what's with kaijun and the peace sign he is always trying to make...
playing for love is much tougher than playing for vengence. it pains to play against your ownself and having this internal struggle when you are playing. i've won, but i lost the battle against him. i still need him. he makes me weak before the match but in the match he made me potent. he bestowed upon me dexterity, agility and strength. the more i played, the more he starts to consume.
Exhilaration! winning that match with the guys was one of the best memories i'm gonna keep in my bag. I dedicate this match to Saffron United.
Friday, February 04, 2005
|
You Are a Dreaming Soul |
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul |
Thursday, February 03, 2005
"i'm sick of caring for you." this stabs. what about unconditionality? i have enough nonsense for the day and yet this comes right smack at when the day is about to end. great end to a day~knowing that a piece of my heart is gone really make things much clearer.
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Too focus? my eyes are only at the shuttle but nothing else. why?being the most puny one during sec 1 wasn;t the best memories i have when i was in my sec sch badminton team. i wasn't a school team player, i was the mess boy. i did most of the work without using the racket. always asked to stand in the middle as a target board for the sch team to train really left a deep scar. i will never forget their laughters, their grins ,that detestable attitude. i left at sec 2 and made a pact to myself that i will beat them when the chance arises.
from then on, i trained and drained myself till i'm on a brink of going bonkers. i treat every game like it's my last and make sure i give my opponent a good fight no matter what calibre they are..
i'm sorry that i scare some of you with the "psyche-up" side of me. because i know the only way i can get the best out of me is to be focus and play with all my 5 senses. i love you guys and i never intended to hurt or scare you all. it's an emotional barrier i know i have to overcome myself.
Creed
..cast your own judgement..
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